If You're Going Through Hell, Keep Going

I just spent the last few minutes going through this person's blog because they had a bunch of posts about Teen Wolf and I miss that show so much that I want to cry a little. (Gosh, I'm going through withdrawal) And the title of the blog is: The One Keeping You Alive

And that really got me thinking about how not only recently but all the time there are things that people are going through and it can get to a point where they feel like they have nothing left to do except not live anymore. And it's sad to think about that people need to be reminded that they have a life worth living but I'm going to do just that.

It's not enough to just simply survive. Find something that makes you want to have a life. Something that makes you feel alive. That makes you want to stay alive. Anything. Because your life is precious and you deserve to live it and be happy.

And as the wonderful Stiles from Teen Wolf says it best: If you're going through Hell, keep going.

Body Love

This just totally needs to be shared all over the world, all day, errday.

This is Mary Lambert and this is her poem/slam/guitar playing/awesomness called "Body Love"

She really says all that needs to be said.

Love your body. It's the most beautiful thing we can call our own.

You're My Sweet Heart

I don't know where I belong. I don't know where I went wrong. But I can write a song...

So the wonderful youtubers are at it again.

Here is a beautiful cover of Lumineers song "Ho Hey" done by the lovely Tyler Ward and the equally lovely Alex G. They have such beautiful voices and I always love love love their duets together. (You should totally subscribe to their pages because they are amazing and are currently on tour so check that out as well)

Oh and if you love the song (which you will) go buy their version on iTunes! It really helps them out a lot! Gotta show that support. :D

Ho Hey

And can I just say that Tyler's face at 0:47 is priceless. It makes me go all jelliod. Hehe. :D

I Believe in Kurt and Blaine

This season of Glee is clearly taking over my life because I have yet another post to make about them.

So I was on twitter and "We Won't Give Up on Finchel" was trending and you know what? Those people might not be giving up on Finchel but I will never give up on Klaine. Those two belong together and that's that. I will be waiting for the day when the world makes sense again and they're in each others arms. (A freaking adorable kiss wouldn't hurt either) Nothing would make me happier. (Other than possibly meeting Darren Criss) :D

So I dedicate (yet another) song to Kurt and Blaine. I will admit it. I'm living vicariously through their relationship (Even though it doesn't fit the type of relationship I will be in but love is love, man. And Kurt and Blaine are so in love it hurts) and I want it to work out. I want them to be together forever and ever. I won't give up on them. Ever.

I Won't Give Up

When I look into your eyes

It's like watching the night sky

Or a beautiful sun rise

Well there's so much they hold

And just like them old stars

I see that you've come so far

To be right where you are

How old is your soul?

Well I won't give up on us

Even if the skies get rough

I'm giving you all my love

I'm still looking up

And when you're needing your space

To do some navigating

I'll be here patiently waiting

To see what you find

Cuz even the stars they burn

Some even fall to the earth

We've got a lot to learn

But God knows we're worth it

I won't give up

No I won't give up

I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily

I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make

Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use the tools and gifts we've got here

We've got a lot at stake

And in the end you're still my friend

At least we did intend for us to work

We didn't break

We didn't burn

We had to learn 

How to bend

Without the world caving in

I had to learn what I got

And what I'm not

And who I am

I won't give up on us

Even if the skies get rough

I'm giving you all my love

I'm still looking up

Still looking

But I won't give up on us

God knows I'm tough enough

We got a lot to learn

God knows we're worth it

I won't give up on us

Even the skies get rough

I'm giving you all my love

I'm still looking up

It Takes Two to Say "I Love You"

Everything is Klaine and nothing hurts.....everything is Klaine and nothing hurts....everything is Klaine and nothing hurts except that...everything hurts.

Blaine always says "I love you" first....but Kurt isn't far behind with an "I love you too". He always says it back. Always.  I want them to have that again.

I miss Klaine so much that it hurts. It literally hurts my heart to see them in so much pain. I know they're just playing characters but love and heart ache are real things. Things that we all will experience. I just want them to be happy again.

That phone call between them literally killed me. But what's important as that they talked and that they were able to admit that they still love each other despite everything. It'll take a while for them to be where they once were but maybe...just maybe they can be friends. After all, they miss each other as much as I miss them.

I just have to remember that you can't make a Klainebow without a little rain and I think this song fits their situation perfectly.

I been crying

Cuz I'm lonely (for you)

Smiles have all turned (to tears)

But tears won't wash away the fears

That you're never ever gonna return

To ease the fire that within me burns

The keeps me crying baby for you

Keeps me sighing baby for you

So won't you hurry

Come on boy and see about me

(Come see about me)

See about your baby

(Come see about me)

I've given up my friends just (for you)

My friends have gone to you (have to)

No peace yeah, I find

Until you come back and be mine

No matter what you do or say

I'm gonna love you anyway

Keep on crying baby for you

I'm gonna keep sighing baby for you

So come on, hurry

Come on and see about me

(Come see about me)

See about your baby

(Come see about me)

Sometimes up

Sometimes down

My life's so uncertain

With you not around

For my arms you may be out of reach

But we heart says you're here to keep

Keeps me crying baby for you

Keep on, keep on crying baby for you

So won't you hurry

Come on boy and see about me

Come see about me

See about your baby

Come see about me

You know I'm so lonely

(Come see about me)

I love you only 

(Come see about me)

See about me

See about your baby

You know I'm so lonely

(Come see about me)

I love you only

(Come see about me)

Come see about me

Remind Me Who I Really Am

So I know it's been almost a week since the Dynamic Duets episode of Glee aired but it's still been on my mind (basically how funny and adorable everyone was) and I've specifically been thinking about when Blaine sang "My Dark Side" with The Warblers.

The lyrics really got me thinking and since I'm a words person (meaning that words have a large impact on the way I think and that's why when I post a lot of songs, I also post the lyrics but I find the lyrics to be the one thing that can really get to the heart of a person's soul) I kinda of soft of totally dissected this song in the context of:
1) Blaine Warbler
2) Blaine as Klaine
3) McKinley High Blaine
4) Blaine Anderson.

So I'm gonna post most of the lyrics so ya'll know that I'm referencing to and their context within the whole song and after the lyrics will be my rants about each post above. (This is gonna be a long post so beware) Lolz.

There's a place

That I know

It's not pretty there

And few have ever gone

And if I show it to you now

Will it make you run away?

Or will you stay?

 Even if it hurts?

Even if I try to push you out

Will you return?

And remind me who I really am

Please remind me who I really am

Everybody's got a dark side

Do you love me?

Can you love mine?

Nobody's a picture perfect

But we're worth it

You know that we're worth it

Do you  love me?

Even with my dark side?

Like a diamond 

From the dust

It's hard to know what can become if you give up

So don't give up on me

Please remind me who I really am

Everybody's got a dark side

Do you love me?

Can you love mine?

Nobody's a picture perfect

But we're worth it

You know that we're worth it

Do you love me?

Even with me dark side?

Don't run away

Don't run away

Just tell me that you will stay

Promise me you will stay

1) What I first started thinking about was the fact that Blaine sang this particular song with the Warblers and not the New Directions. I find this interesting because Dalton was the place that Blaine ran away to in order to get away from the bullying he was experiencing at his public school. And in turn The Warblers gave him a home, one where he could feel safe and feel like he belonged. So in this context, the lyrics "please remind me who I really am" totally apply here. Even though The Warbler technically wanted Blaine back in order to help them win regionals (because they know that they might not be able to win without him because Blaine is just so kick ass), Dalton was the first place where Blaine felt like he could be himself without fear and he pretty much became the awesome and wonderful person that he is today because of his time at Dalton. He even wanted Kurt to come to Dalton in order to find a sanctuary from the bullying that Kurt was experiencing and the two of them found out who they really were by having that type of setting around them. But as we all know, Kurt really did belong at McKinley and that's where he ended up but that's beside the point. The Warblers wanted Blaine to come back to them because Dalton was where he found himself and maybe just maybe, he needed The Warblers to remind him of that.

2) In terms of Blaine being with Kurt (and becoming Klaine) I think that this song also really fits. The lyrics that I'm thinking of that fit this circumstance are "Everybody's got a dark side. Do you love me? Can you love mine?" I mean that's totally in reference to Kurt and their relationship. It's true, everyone does have a dark side (we all make mistakes and it's only a matter of time until we make one that will devastate us) but loving someone means loving all of them. Their dark side included. I'm not saying that what Blaine did wasn't right. It wasn't. He totally betrayed Kurt's trust when he cheated and there's no excuse. (But come on, pretty much all of the New Directions have cheated at some point or broke up with someone to be with another person or just pretended to like someone when they actually liked someone else) Blaine is not a terrible person. What he did was terrible, but it was a mistake and he wished he could take it back. With these lyrics he's basically asking Kurt to love him despite all the bad. Despite everything that has happened between them because in reality we all have dark sides and if we didn't love other people and their dark sides then there would literally be no love in this world. The other lyric that would go with this rant would be "don't give up on me". I totally think that Blaine wants Kurt to not give up on him. I mean no one wants to be given up on. We all want someone to believe in us. All Blaine's asking for is forgiveness. That might not be easy to give but at least he's asking.

3) So in terms of Blaine being at McKinley this is pretty simple. Blaine's obviously been going through a hard time. He's lost without Kurt and he's desperately trying to make things right. But it's not that simple. With Kurt not talking to him the only people he has to lean on are the New Directions. But that's hard for him as well because the only reason that Blaine came to McKinley in the first place is because of Kurt. How would that make you feel when your one reason for doing something is gone? (It's like going to a certain college because you're significant other is going there and then they end up breaking up with you or going to a different school). I mean that would totally suck. So I think the lyrics that will best fit here are "If I show it to you now, will it make you run away or will you stay?" Meaning that if Blaine shows these people his dark side will they accept him? I think they do. It may have taken Blaine a little bit to realize that but honestly, the New Directions are his friends. They're his home now. They accept him despite everything he's done and he accepts them despite everything that they've done. Another lyric that would go with this is "Even if it hurts? Even if I try to push you out, will you return?". Blaine totally tried to push these guys away. He actually considered going back to Dalton (which would be crazy because it's his senior year and he is senior class president for crying out loud) and yet they all banned together to keep him at McKinley. They wanted him to stay even though he wanted to leave. They honestly showed him where he belonged.

4) With Blaine being just Blaine Anderson, I think that lyrics that are most fitting are "Nobody's a picture perfect. But we're worth. You know that we're worth it". Blaine isn't perfect. Nobody is. I think that the most important thing for him to do is to find forgiveness. He needs to forgive himself and constantly tell himself that's he worth it. That's he's worthy of love. I mean Kurt was in love with him for a reason. That initial reason cannot have gone away that easily. Blaine just needs to be Blaine. That's it.

So to end this post, here's the actual clip from the episode of Blaine singing "My Dark Side" with The Warblers. Enjoy. :D

We Could be Heroes

Can I just say how much I am loving the new Sam and Blaine friendship?

After everything that's happened this season it's nice to see that some relationships are still intact or are making an effort to start a relationship. With Blaine not having Kurt by his side and Sam not having Mercedes (I'm not even sure if they're still together. Nobody really mentioned it. But since pretty much everybody broke up I'm just gonna assume they're not together) it's nice to see that Blaine and Sam have each other to lean on. They have each other to listen and understand their problems. They have each other to give advice to and make each other feel better. And best of all, they have each other to sing with. :D

So last night on Glee Blam, Slaine (or whatever you want to call their coupling name) sang a real "Dynamic Duet" together. Their voices sound so silky together. It makes me go all jelloid. Lolz.

For you listening pleasure (if you missed the episode or just want to hear it again), I give you:

"Heroes"

I, I wish I could swim

Like dolphins

Like dolphins can swim

Thought nothing

Nothing will keep us together

We can beat them

Forever and ever

Oh, we can be heroes

Just for one day

I, I will be King

And you

You will be queen

Though nothing will drive them away

We can be heroes

Just for one day

We can be us

Just for one day

I, I can remember

(I remember)

Standing by the wall

(By the wall)

And the guns

Shot above out heads

(Over our heads)

And we kissed

As though nothing could fall

(Nothing could fall)

And the shame

Was on the other side

Oh we can beat them

Forever and ever

And we could be heroes

Just for one day

We can be heroes

We can be heroes

Just for one day

We can be heroes

We can be heroes

Just for one day

Extraordinary Life

You're the boy of my dreams and what an extraordinary dream it has been. An extraordinary dream in an extraordinary life.

I'm glad I found you.

There are some dreams that should never have to end....

I Would

So since One Direction's new album came out I of course need to blog about my favorite song off said new album. So here it is. :D 

I Would

Lately I've found myself thinking

Been dreaming about you a lot

And up in my head I'm your boyfriend

But that's one thing you've already got

He drives to school every morning

While I walk alone in the rain

He'd kill me without any warning

If he took a look in my brain

Would he's say he's in L-O-V-E?

Well if it was me then I would, I would

Would he hold when you're feeling low?

Baby, you should know that I would, I would

Would he's say he's in L-O-V-E?

Well if it was me then I would, I would

Would he hold when you're feeling low?

Baby, you should know that I would, I would

Back in my head we were kissing

I thought things were going alright

With a sign on my back saying "Kick Me"

Reality ruined my life

It feels like I'm constantly playing

A game that I'm destined to lose

Cuz I can't compete with your boyfriend

He's got 27 tattoos

Would he's say he's in L-O-V-E?

Well if it was me then I would, I would

Would he hold when you're feeling low?

Baby, you should know that I would, I would

Would he's say he's in L-O-V-E?

Well if it was me then I would, I would

Would he hold when you're feeling low?

Baby, you should know that I would, I would

Would he please you?

Would he kiss you?

We he treat you like I would?

We he touch you?

Would he need you?

Would he love you like I would?

Would he's say he's in L-O-V-E?

Well if it was me then I would

Would he hold when you're feeling low?

Baby, you should know that I would

Would he please you?

Would he kiss you?

We he treat you like I would?

We he touch you?

Would he need you?

Would he love you like I would?

Would he's say he's in L-O-V-E?

Well if it was me then I would, I would

Would he hold when you're feeling low?

Baby, you should know that I would, I would

All These Little Things

....that annoy me.

So One Direction's new album Take Me Home came out today in the US and I have, dare I say it, a problem.

I just started listening to their album this morning when I got it and for the most part I love it. I mean, a lot. I really think their sound is incredible and they even gave Niall and Louis more chances to sing. Gasp! But there is one thing that bothers me and that's their song "Little Things"

I think it sounds beautiful, their voices are angelic and they are beyond beautiful singing in the music video (I really like the fact that they have the video take place in the studio. You don't see that too often these days) And I love a good slow jam just as much as the next person who loves a good slow jam. But what annoys me is the lyrics.

Basically the song is about all the "little things" that their girlfriend doesn't like about herself (her entire body pretty much and everything that goes along with it) and of course it happens to be those "little things" that are, in fact, the reasons why the boys (meaning One Direction as separate people) are in love with her. It just gets me thinking about the idea that men have to constantly reassure women of their appeal otherwise they will only feel bad about themselves. We live in a society where women are looked down upon if they do not live up the perfect ideal of beauty, which is in fact UNATTAINABLE (just in case you were wondering). It just annoys me that these things that the girl hates about herself are the things that the boy loves and then suddenly that makes it okay for her to love herself. I think this song would have made better sense or sent a better message if the "little things" he loved about her were her personality or something that makes the relationship really worth while.

I don't know. Maybe I'm becoming a feminist. And maybe that's okay.

But that's my rant for the day. Don't let this deter you from buying their amazing album which you should really do. :D Just do it.

Here's the music video and the lyrics. Do with them what you may. :D

Your hand fits in mine like it's made just for me
but bear this mind it was meant to be
and I'm lining up the dots with the freckles on your cheeks
and it all makes sense to me

  I know you've never loved the crinkles by your eyes when you smile,
you've never loved your stomach or your thighs
the dimples in your back at the bottom of your spine
But I'll love them endlessly

I won't let this little things slip out of my mouth
But if i do, it's you, oh it's you, they add up to
I'm in love with you and all these little things

You can't go to bed without a cup of tea
maybe that's the reason that you talk in your sleep
and all those conversations are the secrets that i keep
though it makes no sense to me

  I know you've never loved the sound of your voice on tape
you never want to know how much you weigh
you still have to squeeze into your jeans
but you're perfect to me

  I won't let this little things slips out of my mouth
But if it's true, it's you, it's you, they add up to
I'm in love with you and all these little things

you never love yourself half as much as i love you
you'll never treat yourself right darling but i want you to
if i let you know, I'm here for you
maybe you'll love yourself like i love you oh

I've just let these little things slips out of my mouth
because it's you, oh it's you, it's you they add up to
and I'm in love with you (all these little things)
I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth
but if it's true, it's you, it's you they add up to
I'm in love with you, and all your little things.

It's A Problem

You know what the worst thing about being a senior in college and about to graduate is?

How freaking adorable the freshman boys are and how their piercing blueish eyes make you want to be a cradle robber.

Seriously....how is that kid even born? He's perfect. Geez.

He is soooooooooo cute. Soooooo damn cute.

I just can't even....

Sigh.....

Sugar Free Caramel

So my Gender and Women's Studies 445 professor asked us to do presentations and they could range from personal stories about our bodies to a cultural artifact that relates to things we've learned in class. I wrote a poem about myself and at the request of my persistent blonde roommate, I decided to post it here.

Hope you enjoy. 

~Sugar Free Caramel~

By Katie Hands

My father is black and my mother is white

That makes me dark but it also makes me light

I change like the seasons, getting colder and getting warmer

Does that mean I am my father in the summer and my mother in the winter?

People try to identify me

While I struggle to identify myself

My parents see color and so do I

I see it in plain sight while others pretend it doesn't exist

They tell me they are blind to color

And I almost feel sorry for them

A world without color must literally be dull

I see my two families and the colors they bring to the table

One family is in the dark while one family is in the light

Although under closer inspection we look relatively the same

It's said that the world isn't split into good people and Death Eaters

That we all have light and dark inside of us

Does it matter if mine is seen on the outside too?

Color almost exists in a world of it's own

Where "white" dabbles in polygamy

Married to privilege, access and opportunity

While "black" stays monogamous

Settling down beside prejudice
Ironically society frowns upon the former lifestyle choice

If culture sees my mother as light and radiant

They does it see my father as dark and sinister?

Are they a non theatrical version of Beauty and the Beast?

But then what does that make me?

Am I Glinda the Good Witch when it's 40 degrees

And the Wicked Witch when it's 70?

If I were forced to choose a side

I don't think I could

I can't simply pick a white tree out of a black forest

Or a speck of black sand scattered on a white beach

 Besides, I don't think it would be fair

To choose one over the other

You combine black with white paint and you end up with grey

But the mirror shows me I am not grey

But a simple reflection

A reflection of what society deems safe and what it deems deviant

A reflection of my mother and of my father

Of their bravery, care and love

I am not grey but a reflection

A reflection of myself

My shadow roams free in the sun but it hides in the shade

There is golden hair under the sun and dark hair in the cover of night

I see my father's curls and my mother's ears

My mother's hands and my father's eyes

I am not grey but the offspring

Of opposite ends of the spectrum

I am my mother and I am my father

Thanks to them I can see me

Life's a Bitch

Life is really unfair sometimes. I mean seriously. We all know that nobody likes a tease and yet life is just here to tease us. Dangle the things we want most in our faces and then take them away. I mean what's that about? Are we just supposed to take that lying down? I don't think so. But what can we do really? Nothing. There is absolutely nothing we can do when things are shoved in our faces to only remind us how unattainable they really are.

Things like this:

Or like this:

or this:

and this:

or them:

and this dude:

and this for crying out loud:

and above all, this:

Life really is unfair. So unfair. I guess these things exist in order for us to strive to bigger and better things. Or maybe they're here just to taunt us sexually frustrated people. Lolz.

Singing Our Hearts Out

I love when artists come out with new albums. It always makes me feel so giddy inside. So as of last week, The Script came out with their third album called #3.

It's beautiful of course and there is some serious rapping in this album that I love. This album has been on repeat all weekend.

The album track list goes as such. If you check them out I think you'll find some lovely gems that are worth repeating for days. :D

1. Good Ol' Days
2. Six Degrees of Separation
3. Hall of Fame feat. Will.I.Am (The music video for this is out now!)
4. If You Could See Me Now
5. Glowing
6. Give the Love Around
7. Broken Arrow
8. Kaleidoscope
9. No Words
10. Millionaires

My favorite song off the album is Millionaires.

So here it is. Enjoy. :D

Millionaires

They're kicking us out

Sayin it's time to close

We're leaning on each other

Trying to beat the cold

We carry our shoes

And I give you  my coat

We're walking these streets

Like they're paved with gold

Any old excuse is not to go

Neither one of us wanna take that taxi home

Singing our hearts out

Standing on chairs

Spending our time like we were millionaires

Laughing our heads off

The two of us there

Spending our time like we were millionaires

Lost my heart

And I hope to die

Seeing that sunlight hit your eyes

Been up all night

But you still look amazing to me

We had the type of night 

You only dream about

If God came down

He could take me now

Cuz in my mind we will always be

Singing our heats out

Standing on chairs

Spending our time like we were millionaires

Laughing our heads off

The two of us there

Spending our time like we were millionaires

Look at us it's 6 in the morning

If time was money then we'd be worth a fortune

I swear you ain't think you're rich

You can have a million euro but you can't buy this

Look at us it's 6 in the morning

If time was money then we'd be worth a fortune

I swear you ain't think you're rich

You can have a million euro but you can't buy this

 

And the band was loud

Playing our song

We messed up the lyrics as we sang along

But we didn't care

Cuz it felt like we were the only ones there

OUr feet were sore

Our throats were raw

They're turning off the lights

But we're shouting on

We're shouting on

 

Singing our heats out

Standing on chairs

Spending our time like we were millionaires

Laughing our heads off

The two of us there

Spending our time like we were millionaires

Look at us it's 6 in the morning

If time was money then we'd be worth a fortune

I swear you ain't think you're rich

You can have a million euro but you can't buy this

Look at us it's 6 in the morning

If time was money then we'd be worth a fortune

I swear you ain't think you're rich

You can have a million euro but you can't buy this

 

We're walking these streets

Like they're paved with gold

Any old excuse is not to go

Neither one of us wants to take that taxi home

We're Not a Sad Story

So I saw The Perks of Being a Wallflower yesterday I just have to say that I cried my eyes out. I cry every time I read the book but seeing all of it on screen really set the water works going. Even just listening to the epilogue from that video below makes me cry. Everything was just so perfect. That was the most beautiful and moving film I have seen in a really long time. It effected me right down to the core. It still effects me and I want to go and watch a thousand times over.

It's nice to know that we all go through stuff, we might not go through the same things that Charlie or Sam or Patrick go through but we all go through stuff and we are not alone. There will always be someone in this world who will listen and understand. You're not a sad story. You're a person...a person who learns to survive because you know that there are people out there looking out for you. People who love you; who don't want you to disappear.

There are people out there who will make you feel infinite.

Charlie's Last Letter

I don’t know if I will have the time to write any more letters because I might be too busy trying to participate.

So, if this does end up being the last letter, I just want you to know that I was in a bad place before I started high school and you helped me. Even if you didn’t know what I was talking about or know someone whose gone through it, you made me not feel alone. Because I know there are people who say these things don’t happen and there are people who forget what it’s like to be 16 when they turn 17.

I know these will all be stories someday, and our pictures will become old photographs, and we’ll all become somebody’s mom or dad. But right now, these moments are not stories. This is happening. I am here and I am looking at her. And she is so beautiful. I can see it: this one moment when you know you’re not a sad story. You are alive. And you stand up and see the lights on the buildings and everything that makes you wonder.

And you’re listening to that song on the drive with that people that you love most in this world. And in this moment, I swear we are infinite.

Is She Right Side Up or Upside Down?

I'm still a bit shocked that I saw Freelance Whales last night. They are absolutely amazing performers. Their music is so soothing and beautiful that I can't help but smile when I hear it.

They are wonderful so go check them out and fall in love with them. They're also really nice friendly people as well. :D

Judah Dodan

Chuck Criss

Seriously, if you haven't already discovered these beauties then get right on it. Your life will be so much lovelier.

Oh and their 2nd album Diluvia comes out this Tuesday and their first album Weathervanes is out now.

Over The Horizon

Despite what happened last night on Glee, my Klainebow is still in tact. Kurt and Blaine;s relationship might not be at the moment but my faith in their love for each other is. They'll find their way back to each other. That I'm positive of.

Some how...

Every time I look at you it's like the first time

Your Biggest Fan

The minute I saw this I just had to blog about it.

Darren Criss never ceases to amaze me. Us dedicated fans know how much we love, admire, appreciate, idolize and fanboy/girl out for this wonderful human being. But I think the most impressive thing is to know how much he loves, admires, appreciates and thanks us for being there for him no matter what.

For tonight's episode of Glee entitled "The Break-Up", Darren sang an acoustic version of the song Teenage Dream and not only did he record it for us all to buy and swoon over on iTunes but he did it because this song is very special to him (it's for first song he sang on Glee) and he knows that because it's dear to him, it's dear to us. He also wrote the most amazing letter to celebrate his 2nd Gleeversary on his personal facebook page thanking his fans for everything that we have done for him; for how much support we've given him, how much appreciation we've given him and ultimately how much love. I can't tell you how much this letter means to me and to all of those Darren Criss lovers out there. I have never known a celebrity to do anything of this magnitude before and for thank I thank him a hundred times over.

Here is the letter: It nearly brought tears to my eyes.

Dearest friends-

Though my very first episode aired on TV in November of 2010, the end of this past September actually marked the two year anniversary of a phone call that really turned my life upside down: I was notified that I had been cast as a new character on the popular television series, “Glee.”

Woah.

By that point, some of you had maybe known me from silly youtube videos, and for even less of you- from cafes, restaurants, and bars I used to play music at. Regardless of the when or the how or the why, it’s been been a pretty incredible journey for all of us since that phone call.

Some highlights:

In April of 2010, I was getting ready to start working on what some of you might now know as A Very Potter Musical. I was a senior at the University of Michigan, and I had just read an article about the cast members from the new hit TV series “Glee” singing at the White House. I thought, “Man, that’s insane.” Well, just this past June I took a song I wrote called “Not Alone” that I used in that very same musical I was working on in college, and sang it in person for the President himself... Shortly before I got to fist-bump him.

In July of 2011, I was asked to speak on a Harry Potter-based fan panel in San Diego. I thought I was a bit under-qualified for the job, but was nonetheless excited to be asked to speak on a panel at one of my favorite summer events: Comic-Con! When I got there, I realized that we were given a rough time slot because it was the same exact time as the panel for that same hit TV show, “Glee.” I thought, “Man, this ‘Glee’ thing is really stealin’ my thunder...” Ok, well, the very next year, I couldn’t do the HP fan panel again because I was on that Glee panel.

The crazy stories go on and on, not to mention the little things like magazine covers or hitting Billboard charts, or doing a film with the likes of amazing people like Kristen Wiig, Annette Bening, Matt Dillon... Let’s see, what else, oh, getting to live my dream of doing a Broadway show, and then of course, there was getting to sing “Rainbow Connection” with Kermit the Frog... I mean, these things are unbelievable. Unbelievable. I have a pretty wild imagination, but I never thought any of that could actually happen, let alone in such a relative short period of time.

Here’s the deal- I work hard, I try to make the right decisions and do the best I can with everything I do and all that good stuff- but really, that can only go so far. There are so many contributing factors to what has happened for me that go far beyond my control... And that’s where you come in. You, the fans, have been a huge part of the reason why I’ve been able to do half the things I’ve been able to do.

We live in an unprecedented age of social connectivity, and I am happy to say that you none of you have failed to take full advantage of that. Don’t think I’m not aware of how active the fandom is, or how much impact is has. Remember: Not only am I fan myself, but I do have an internet connection. I see the gifs, I see the fanfics, I see the memes, and it’s all amazing stuff. Though I haven’t met the majority of you, it’s a real thrill to know that many of your lives have come together on behalf of mine. That’s an incredibly moving concept, and the fact that those connections have yielded so much positivity is something even more amazing.

Let’s take my own stories out of the picture for a second- you, as a group, have all accomplished some pretty amazing things yourselves. You done everything from raising money for great causes to organizing awesome flash mobs over the internet to show your support. You have shown up at the crack of dawn and stayed until you’re the last one standing. You have come together to create something far greater than any of us: a real sense of community and a genuine place of support- not just for me but for each other. And I can safely say that I wouldn’t be where I am now if it weren’t for that.

Oftentimes I meet people who challenge me, “You have no idea what you’ve done for me.” Well the truth is, it’s the other way around. I do have an idea, and a pretty good one at that. Because for whatever you may think I may be giving you, you are actually giving back to me, tenfold. And I am constantly wondering when and if it will fade, who will stick around, who will get bored- I often think about the day there won’t be anyone on the other side of the stage door... but despite myself, as time goes on, you all have never ceased to amaze me with your enthusiasm, creativity, and seemingly endless joy that continues to inspire and encourage me.

Tonight is the premiere of the dreaded break-up episode. For many Glee fans, I imagine there will more than reason to be sad. But cheer up, think of it this way: much of your support has allowed me to be on this show long enough to reach a breakup in the first place; it has created a relationship that people cared enough about whereby it was even worth writing an episode about its potential end. I never thought I would get to be around long enough for something like that. And I really have you, the fans to thank for it. It’s something to be proud of.

What’s more, I was even asked to play my own arrangement of teenage dream for this episode- an acoustic piano version which so many of you have supported since I sang it as my first song on my very first episode. I started playing this version at shows as a sort of “thank you” to the fans, for making it such a big song for both myself and the show. It was the song that started everything.

So before the episode airs tonight, I thought it was only appropriate to write a fully fledged note to all of you that could express my deep appreciation for the past two years since that crazy phone call. I hope that this is just the beginning, and that I get to thank you many more times for many more adventures as the years roll by. But for now, know that I am so very grateful for everything you’ve given me, and I am very proud of what we have accomplished together. From teenage dream to teenage dream, thank you for allowing me to live mine.

your biggest fan,
Darren

I think this letter says it all. Just seeing the words "your biggest fan" coming from him means so much to me that I can't even handle it. I just... Darren you are an amazing person and it's because you stay true to you that we are able to stay true to us. 

Loving you until my dying day. 

Your Very Own You

 *Disclaimer* This is my little bit of fandom ranting and evaluating.

I think Blaine is slowly changing. He's becoming the individual he once was when he was a Warbler. The person who didn't need someone else to be there to help him become someone. However, when he found Kurt he found the part of himself he never knew he was missing. He found the strength that he didn't have before. He found the ability to be okay with himself and the way he lives his life. When Kurt came into his life he discovered so much more about himself. But now that Kurt's gone he needs to reevaluate everything about himself. Why he came to McKinley and why he joined the Glee Club. Now that he doesn't have his better half around he needs to fill in that half himself. He needs to figure out what he wants to be...who he wants to be without Kurt. He needs to find out who he really is. He needs to do this on his own and discover his very own Blaine. I think he's finally doing that.

I think he will be a better person for it.

Many people say that Blaine saved Kurt. But I think Kurt saved Blaine. Kurt brought Blaine out of his comfort zone. They went to prom together (despite the fact that Blaine got beat up for wanting to go to a prom at his old high school), they held hands in public, they sang emotional songs to each without any doubts. No matter what happens between him and Kurt they will finally realize that they can each be their own person. They can be their own heroes...whether they're together or apart.

This, however, does not in any way mean that I will be okay when and if Klaine breaks up. I will be torn up inside. Literally. But I will just have to remind myself that their is plenty of time for them to find each other again. Whether it's just a few episodes later or at the end of the season, when they do find their way back to each they will have become better people. They will be able to have a better relationship, one that's stronger and more tender. One that is simply Klaine.

Whatever the outcome of "The Break-Up" episode will be, one thing will remain true: Everything is Klaine and Nothing Hurts. These two are soul mates and soul mates can conquer anything.

So until we find out what happens, I'd like to dedicate this song to Kurt and Blaine. (I shall be changing all of the '"She's" to "He's". I think Ricky would prefer it that way anyways.)

[He's] All I'll Ever Need by Ricky Martin

He's all, he's all I ever had

He's the air I breathe, yeah

He's all, he's all I ever

It's the way he makes me feel

It's the only thing that's real

It's the way he understands

He's my lover, he's my friend

When I look into his eyes

It's the way I feel inside

Like the man I wanna be

He's all I'll ever need

Wow, this is the longest post I've had in a few months. I think that's my cue to stop jabbering. Well I'll leave you with this: May Klaine always be the shining rainbow above your head that makes you believe in love. :D

Welcome to Your Life...

There's no turning back....

Hey Blaine Anderson, your Darren Criss is showing. :D


Wizards and superheroes. It's nice to see some Darren peaking through all that hair gel.

Welcome to your life

There's no turning back

Even while we sleep

We will find you

Acting on your best behavior

Turn your back on mother nature

Everybody wants to rule the world

It's my own design

It's my own remorse

Help me to design

Help me make the

Most of freedom

And of pleasure

Nothing ever lasts forever

Everybody wants to rule the world

There's a room

Where the light won't find you

Holding hands

While the walls come tumbling down

When they do I'll be right behind you

So glad we've almost made it

So sad they had to fade it

Everybody wants to rule the world

I can't stand this indecision

Married with a lack of vision

Everybody wants to rule the...

Say that you'll never, never, never, never need it

One hair line, why believe it

Everybody wants to rule the world

All for freedom

And for pleasure

Nothing ever lasts forever

Everybody wants to rule the world

Live While We're Young

The boys if 1D are back and they've got a whole lot to say (and a bunch of new hair styles)!


So let's follow their lead and live while we're young! :D

Hey girl, I'm waiting on ya

I'm waiting on ya

Come on and let me sneak you out

and have a celebration

a celebration

The music up, the windows down

Yeah, we'll be doing what we do

Just pretending that we're cool

and we know it too

Yeah, we'll keep doing what we do

just pretending that we're cool

Let's go crazy, crazy, crazy

till we see the sun

I know we only met but let's pretend it's love

and never, never, never

stop for anyone

Tonight let's get some 

and live while we're young

Tonight let's get some

and live while we're young

Hey girl, it's now or never, now or never

Don't over think 

Just let it go

And if we get together, get together

don't let the pictures leave your phone

Yeah, we'll be doing what we do

Just pretending that we're cool

and we know it too

Yeah, we'll keep doing what we do

just pretending that we're cool

Let's go crazy, crazy, crazy

till we see the sun

I know we only met but let's pretend it's love

and never, never, never

stop for anyone

Tonight let's get some 

and live while we're young

 

Wanna live while we're young

 

Tonight let's get some

and live while we're young

 

And girl, you and I

we bought to make some memories tonight

I wanna live while we're young

we wanna live while we're young

Let's go crazy, crazy, crazy

till we see the sun

I know we only met but let's pretend it's love

and never, never, never

stop for anyone

Tonight let's get some 

and live while we're young

Let's go crazy, crazy, crazy

till we see the sun

I know we only met but let's pretend it's love

and never, never, never

stop for anyone

Tonight let's get some 

and live while we're young

 

(wanna live)

(wanna live)

 

Tonight let's get some

and live while we're young

Careful what you wish for...

I want to be in love.

I want to have young teenage love like Kurt and Blaine.

I want to have grown up love like David and Brian from The New Normal.

I want to be in love with an adorable boy who makes me smile.

I am aware that I base true love off of gay tv show couples but those couples are the only ones that I really believe in and root for. (That's probably because these boys are so cute and I love boys. If I were a guy I would totally be gay. I wouldn't wanna be with a chick. Just sayin')

Love is love man and I want it.

I really do...

I'm Giving the Academy a Raincheck

It's time to begin. Isn't it? I get a little bit bigger but then I'll admit I'm just the same as I was. Now don't you understand that I'm never changing who I am.

Glee is back and the Klainebows are shining brighter than ever. Life makes sense again. :D

The choreography for this song is genius and can I just say that the Klaine hug at the end is a beautiful start to a beautiful new season. I'm so happy I could skip. Or better yet...double dutch.

Gonna Dress You Up in My Love

Fashion Night Out 2012- September 6th

God, I love Darren so much. He is perfection. :D

Love is Friendship Set on Fire

And I'll remember the strength that you gave me...and I'll remember the way that you saved me

Kurt and Rachel at their finest

If You Get Lost, You Can Always Be Found

Pay no mind to the demons, they fill you with fear

 

I freaking love youtubers. They are some of the most talented people I have ever heard. They deserve so much more recognition then they are already getting. That's why I like to share the lovely youtubers that I find.

So for you viewing pleasure, I present Savannah Outen (who retweeted one of my tweets!), Corey Gray, and Jake Coco singing Phillip Phillips' lovely song "Home". These guys sound gorgeous together. I'm blown away. You should definetely check out their youtube pages, so just click on their names and you'll be set straight to Heaven. :D

Hold on to me as we go

As we roll down this unfamiliar road

And although this wave is stringing us along

Just know you're not alone

Cuz I'm gonna make this place your home

Settle down, it'll all be clear

Don't pay no mind to the demons, they fill you with fear

The trouble, it might drag you down

If you get lost you can always be found

Just know you're not alone

Cuz I'm gonna make this place your home

Settle down, it'll all be clear

Don't pay no mind to the demons, they fill you with fear

The trouble, it might drag you down

If you get lost you can always be found

Just know you're not alone

Cuz I'm gonna make this place your home