Feels like Feelings

I want that feeling again.

I want to feel something for somebody again. Not just an attraction to them. Like I could say that I'm attracted to Neil Patrick Harris (because he's AWESOME) but I can't date him for obvious reasons. But that's all it is.

I want that feeling back. I want to be giddy when I see him. I want to get embarrassed around him. I want to want to see him all the time. I want to want to talk to him all the time. I want to feel sad when he's with another girl. I want to get jealous when goes on dates. I want to be his friend but I want to want something more. I want him to make me feel something for him.

I want to feel the way that Elena does for Stefan and the way he feels for her. I want to feel the pain that Damon feels when he sees them together, knowing all the while that Elena is all that he wants but cannot have her.

I don't care if I feel heart broken because feeling that way is better than feeling nothing at all.

Bloody Hell It's Here!

Little Boy Bloom is here! :D

Orlando and Miranda's baybay finally came! Ahh! No pics yet but that is gonna be one heart breaking baby boy. :D

Love in Every Form

It's official. I'm in love with a gay couple. :D (They're a good lookin' couple!)

Neil Patrick Harris (NPH) and his soul mate David Burtka have gotten two darling babies on 10/12/10! So special. :D



They are a beautiful family. They look so perfect holding those babies. :D I'm so happy for them!

This gives me hope. <3

(This is a total win. Greatest Rooster dinner ever!)

New Year's Resolution

So I have decided to stop swearing. However, I know I would not be able to do that cold turkey so I've decided to just substitute more severe swear words with less severe ones. :D

So instead of saying Fuck, shit and bitch I shall instead say Hell, damn and ass. I mean I feel as though those words are not completely bad words. Hell is a place, damn is something we can be, like "damned to hell". Again hell is in that sentence and ass is just another word for butt.

So there you go. That is my new year's resolution. Hopefully I can actually keep this one. haha. :D

Joy Unexpected

Who knew a short little message could bring me so much joy.

My mouth is starting to hurt from smiling. :D

20 things in 20 Years

Today is my 20th birthday. I have been alive for 2 whole decades! That's a long time and in that time there are some things that I've learned.

Here are the 20 most important things I've learned in my 20 years. :D

1) Not all relationships last, especially in Hollywood.
2) Not everyone is who you think they are
3) We all have our secrets (some may even have a dark passenger)
4) Keep your friends close and your enemies closer
5) Life's tough, get a helmet
6) Tv was better in the 90's
7) There are way less problems as a little kid
8) Puberty sucks
9) Middle school is a literal hell on earth. I didn't block out 8th grade for nothing
10) Some trilogies should stay as trilogies. None of this 4th movie bull shit
11) Commercials waste your life, especially on the internet. Ridiculous
12) Wireless internet is great, except at Liz Waters
13) Boys are cute. :D
14) Some people can be annoying as hell
15) Movies and TV don't depict real life, especially high school
16) Celebrities seem like fake people
17) Facebook is fake life, really fake
18) They show sex too much on tv/movies, we know what you're gonna do, don't need to see it
19) Kids are cute, until they become evil
20) My friends and family are the best things that have ever been mine