Music and Lyrics

I wonder what I'm doing with my life.

I mean what's the point of all of this? I feel like I'm not achieving anything and am just floating. What does that mean? I feel like I'm in college to just be in college. (Don't get me wrong, I know I should be in college and am glad I am) I just don't know what's going to happen.

I mean what's going to happen tomorrow? Next week? Next year? What if I still feel this way months or years from now. It's like I'm just....here. But there has to be some kind of meaning behind this. I don't know what I'm going to do with my life. I have no freaking clue! I know I'm only in my 2nd year and this is the time to figure out what I want to do but what if I never really find something I'm passionate about?

I things I find passion through are petty things. Superficial things. Like for instance incredibly attractive celebrities. How is becoming easily obsessed with something going to help me down the road? It's not. All it does is make me look superficial. Like my "feelings" for what's his face. I mean what's the about? I don't even know the guy! I saw him around a lot (immediately noticed his adorable self)and then suddenly I'm like "hooked" on him. How dumb is that?!? I don't get it. I mean if there was a reason that I was supposed to "feel" this way about a person I don't know, then wouldn't there have been a more....fulfilling development by now? I don't know, maybe nothing is supposed to happen and that's that.

But God! Then what's the point? Everything that happens, happens for a reason (well at least I believe that)I also believe in fate and maybe this is supposed to be my fate but not his. I mean is fate supposed to be double sided? You would think so but what if it's really just meant for me to learn something from. But what could I possibly learn? I guess I will just have to wait and see.

But I'm tired of waiting. All I ever do is wait, wait for something great to come along.

Gahh, I should really stop taking song lyrics to heart. It makes me think about things too much. (I also need to stop saying he's adorable. Make it all that much harder to make sense of my thoughts/feelings)