Music and Lyrics

I wonder what I'm doing with my life.

I mean what's the point of all of this? I feel like I'm not achieving anything and am just floating. What does that mean? I feel like I'm in college to just be in college. (Don't get me wrong, I know I should be in college and am glad I am) I just don't know what's going to happen.

I mean what's going to happen tomorrow? Next week? Next year? What if I still feel this way months or years from now. It's like I'm just....here. But there has to be some kind of meaning behind this. I don't know what I'm going to do with my life. I have no freaking clue! I know I'm only in my 2nd year and this is the time to figure out what I want to do but what if I never really find something I'm passionate about?

I things I find passion through are petty things. Superficial things. Like for instance incredibly attractive celebrities. How is becoming easily obsessed with something going to help me down the road? It's not. All it does is make me look superficial. Like my "feelings" for what's his face. I mean what's the about? I don't even know the guy! I saw him around a lot (immediately noticed his adorable self)and then suddenly I'm like "hooked" on him. How dumb is that?!? I don't get it. I mean if there was a reason that I was supposed to "feel" this way about a person I don't know, then wouldn't there have been a more....fulfilling development by now? I don't know, maybe nothing is supposed to happen and that's that.

But God! Then what's the point? Everything that happens, happens for a reason (well at least I believe that)I also believe in fate and maybe this is supposed to be my fate but not his. I mean is fate supposed to be double sided? You would think so but what if it's really just meant for me to learn something from. But what could I possibly learn? I guess I will just have to wait and see.

But I'm tired of waiting. All I ever do is wait, wait for something great to come along.

Gahh, I should really stop taking song lyrics to heart. It makes me think about things too much. (I also need to stop saying he's adorable. Make it all that much harder to make sense of my thoughts/feelings)

Marry Me

When (and if) I get proposed to I want this song to be playing in the background. :D I wouldn't hurt for him to actually be singing it too but that could be pushing it. (They can't all be Darren Criss's) ;D

Marry Me by Train

Forever could never be long enough for me
To feel like I've had long enough with you
Forget the world now
We won't let them see
But there's one thing left to do
Now that the weight has lifted
Love has surely shifted my way

Marry me
Today and everyday
Marry me
If I ever get the nerve to say hello in this cafe
Say you will, say you will

Together could never be close enough for me
To feel like I am close enough to you
You'll wear white and I'll wear out the words "I love you"
And "you're beautiful"
Now that the wait is over
And love has finally showed her my way

Marry me
Today and everyday
Marry me
If I ever get the nerve to say hello in this cafe
Say you will, say you will

Promise me you'll always be happy by my side
I promise to sing to you when all the music dies

Marry me
Today and everyday
Marry me
If I ever get the nerve to say hello in this cafe
Say you will, say you will

Marry me

We Are Victorious

On this day February 6th, 2011 the Lambardi Trophy comes home.

THE GREEN BAY PACKERS WIN THE SUPERBOWL!!

Whose your daddy? The one, the only, Sir Aaron Rodgers. :D

WOOT WOOT!

Suit Up

SO.DAMN.CLASSY



Matt Bomer in all his glory. :D

The Day of Snow

Wednesday February 2nd is a day to remember. Want to know why?!?!?

SNOW DAY!!! WOOT WOOT! 2 years in a row has to be like some kind of record. And despite the fact that I had to get up at 545 in the morning to go shovel didn't get me down. (although I was tired and my back is killing me today) But I'm not complaining, the past is the past and it was a fun day yesterday.

First the epic snow ball fight on Bascom Hill where Lake Shore once again dominated South East. SUCK IT SOUTH EAST!

Then watching Grease with the hommies. Gosh, that movie is great and John Travolta is beautiful. (Although for some reason Hannah does not think so. I think she's on drugs. SHHH!)

Overall, it was a good day. SCORE!

Feels like Feelings

I want that feeling again.

I want to feel something for somebody again. Not just an attraction to them. Like I could say that I'm attracted to Neil Patrick Harris (because he's AWESOME) but I can't date him for obvious reasons. But that's all it is.

I want that feeling back. I want to be giddy when I see him. I want to get embarrassed around him. I want to want to see him all the time. I want to want to talk to him all the time. I want to feel sad when he's with another girl. I want to get jealous when goes on dates. I want to be his friend but I want to want something more. I want him to make me feel something for him.

I want to feel the way that Elena does for Stefan and the way he feels for her. I want to feel the pain that Damon feels when he sees them together, knowing all the while that Elena is all that he wants but cannot have her.

I don't care if I feel heart broken because feeling that way is better than feeling nothing at all.

Bloody Hell It's Here!

Little Boy Bloom is here! :D

Orlando and Miranda's baybay finally came! Ahh! No pics yet but that is gonna be one heart breaking baby boy. :D